i'm a lady

after a long absence (again) i come back. blog, forgive me. life happened.

i am obsessed with this song by the way. and also cigarettes. but not in an addictive way.
of course, that sounds like what all addicts would say.

i'm not a chain smoker, that's all. i smoke on occasion. i'm a lady, i can do what i want.

however, living at home, does not allow me to be a lady.

i need a damn job.

oh yeah. i think i've replaced rihanna with lady gaga. rihanna looked a lot better without her hair dyed blond and before she started wearing all these bright clothes.. go back to black and leather rihanna, please. and you'll be my favorite again. but lady gaga is fierce. and what made me love her is her actual talent as a pianist. and her morbid personality. great job.

i'm going to be something. i just don't know what it is yet.
but trust me, even i'm running out of patience with myself.

i do realize that this post lacks cohesiveness, especially with the latter of this blog. thats okay. my life has been very juxtaposed.
fuck, does that even make sense?

i am so annoyed with myself right now.
time to crack open this drink.

good night.


this probably really isnt a return to a never known blog, but i'll pop in every now and then. so that for the future, i can laugh at my wickedness.