guard.

there's a wall now. i refuse. i felt fine. i'll keep appearing that way. but now, i just can't trust anyone.

humanity, i would love to get in a ring with you, and just give you my all.
really, just thank you. why do you make me question all my relationships. why do you make me wonder if they were genuine?

humanity, just punch me. just knock me out. you've done it before. just do it one last time.

inside, there's just too much. i can't bear it to anybody. i can't trust you. nobody. it's not like anyone can do anything. we all have our shit. we all have our problems. we're all preoccupied.

chasing people. not worth it.
wanting people. not worth it.

inside, i will remain pessimistic.
but i will keep a front, so that nobody bugs me. nobody asks stupid questions that don't want to be answered.

don't pry and try to figure me out.
just let me live this life.
i patiently wait for the end.